BOLD SPIRIT

I just finished a book I picked up at my local library. I never would have ever sought for it had it not been strategically placed at the checkout.

It was  called: “BOLD SPIRIT: Helga Estby’s Forgotten Walk across Victorian America” by Linda Hunt.   It is a life history of a desperate, determined, unwaveringly confident Norwegian immigrant woman named Helga Estby. In 1896 she dares to cross 3500 miles of the American continent to win a $10,000 wager on Foot. She walks with her daughter Clara who was aged 18 at the time, in a journey of an audacious act of courage and love of a mother trying to save a family farm. With amazing twists and turns of tests of survivability that lead up to the prime adventure, she proves what women have always known- that we are strong- like unto the men as we read in the scriptures on the Book of Mormon in 1^st Nephi 17:  1 And it came to pass that we did again take our journey in the wilderness; and we did travel nearly eastward from that time forth. And we did travel and wade through much affliction in the wilderness; and our women did bear children in the wilderness.  2 And so great were the blessings of the Lord upon us, that while we did live upon raw meat in the wilderness, our women did give plenty of suck for their children, and were strong, yea, even like unto the men;

What impressed me so much was how she trusted in her sponsors for this walk and ended up stranded in New York for several months without a way to get home as originally promised. Even after finding charitable sources to sustain her way home (nearly a year after she began) her story is silenced as she is made to feel she has not accomplished anything except for the death of 2 of her young children from diphtheria while she is absent. She is told by other sponsors that she will be granted the $10,000 if she writes about her adventure-- but she never does—or so we think for nearly 75 years. In fact, her story of the original manuscript was burned by her children who didn’t want to be reminded of their mother’s absence and all of the pain it had caused. It wasn’t until nearly 4 generations later her story was unfolded- hidden from all women because of a great “family silencing”.

Don’t we all have stories of pain in our families?  I don’t know of one single family who DOESN’T!! We all grow from the life challenges of others.  Don’t be so fearful of you being the only one this has ever happened to- because you’re not!!  The purpose of a journal or history is to let our posterity know of our strength, courage and tenacity in the face of challenging odds.  THESE ARE THINGS WE INHERIT through generations! Pass down your stories that are unique to YOUR history. Cherish it- don’t be embarrassed by it. Most of us don’t think we live lives of any significance.  I bet even George Washington, Joseph Smith, Willford Woodruff, Abraham Lincoln, Lewis & Clark, and even all of your relatives just thought they were living an ordinary life and thought –“Who would ever be interested in the story of my life one day?”   I just wish there were one diary in existence from someone in my family heritage to tell me of what I have inherited- what courage runs through my veins, what indomitable strength runs through my soul & heart!!   I KNOW that I possess it- I just do not know from whence it came.  I have been fortunate however to find a letter or 2 which gives clues into an ancestor’s personality or life adventures.

May you write about YOUR life- however unimportant you may think it is….it is NOT unimportant to those who will come after you. May you have courage to write and reveal to an unquenchable source about the deepest feelings of your heart and may it never be silenced-- but found alive in every generation.

And in the words of Cora in the movie "The Last of the Mohicans" when she experiences the real life story of the indians as told by a white man captured as a child and raised by them:

"Indeed it is more deeply stirring to my soul than any possible imaginings could have been."

I have been so attracted to stories of strong women lately. 

If you’d like…. check out these books also!

“Even Silence Has an End”-- by Ingrid Betancourt- her own story of capture& survival for 6 yrs in the Columbian jungle in 2001-2007.

“Left to Tell” --by Immaculee Illibagiza- An amazing story of her survival of the Genocide in Rwanda in 1994

“Follow the River” -- by  James Alexander Thom – as story of Mary Ingles who was captured by the Indians during the French & Indian War. She gives birth about 4 days after her capture and eventually finds her way home, leaving her child with the Indians.

AlLIgNmEnT or ALLIGNMENT?

Ever notice throughout history that the head of every dispensation was given Astronomy 101 lessons?
This must be a pattern of importance!!.....you think???

As we see in the Book of Abraham, in the Pearl of Great Price- (esp chapter 3), Abraham desires further light and knowledge and is tutored in the ways of the heavenly bodies and given a comparison of how this pattern relates to man- a literal HOLOGRAM of sorts.  When one can stay in orbit around the Sun (Son is the REAL meaning here!), one can receive increase and continued light because of obedience.  As long as you orbit around something you receive your light from that center of your universe. This is the basic fundamental of all fundamental concepts.

Some of us orbit around rock stars or celebrities (Stars). Some of us orbit around a refrigerator glowing in the night and wonder why we can't lose weight?  Some of us orbit around a glowing computer screen- however large or small- filled with pornography. As you continue to read in Abraham 3, there was  a second, even the one who is known as Lucifer (his name means-- Light bearer). He became a "Falling star" and his glory was most certainly bright and beautiful but he fell out of orbit from God and thus now gets his light from no one greater than himself and will eventually fade out after his glorious tour of the heavens--taking with him, as many as he can claim to orbit about him.

When we incarnate into this body, we take on a literal vibrational coding of sorts based on the GPS location and Minute that we entered this life. This is what we see in a Natal Astrology chart.  As those plantes (wanderers) continue to move about in their divine order against the backdrop of the fixed stars (those that don't move from our perspective here on Earth) there is an ever set timing of the grand clock of the universe.  Each planet is a literal cog in the timepiece.  We are set up to receive specific energies at specific times in our life to choose what we will make of ourselves --for positive or negative of those energies at those times. This is why you can never tell exactly what a person has chosen to express from their chart, but you can read the energy of it. Choice is a law of the universe and cannot be predicted with perfect accuracy. Some of us can get good at prediction however, when you come to spend time with someone you come to "know" what they may be capable of.

Have you noticed that we have had some amazing planetary allignments of late in May 2011?- Have you wondered why????????
Well- let me tell you what I have observed recently.  If the true purpose of allignment is to feel these cosmic powers within oneself helping one to truly allign with our TRUE self.....then we get it. IF NOT- we end up in a crisis of not finding a solution and checking out of life- literally! We run away from it all.

I have noticed more people lately struggling with a crisis of "Integrity" is what it all boils down to. Example:  I can't live this way anymore (death or suicide results as no solution is found). I can't live this lie anymore and can't keep this secret anymore and they seek help to bring it out thru counseling.  I can't stay in this marriage anymore and they leave....I can't pay this debt or see a way out of it so I'll wrack up all the more- what's the use?.  I can't face myself anymore and they try to run away thinking that will be the way to avoid ultimately having to face one's weak human self in a like manner of playing a childhood game of hide and seek...etc. etc. 

It's time to get down to work!!!  It is time to face up-- This allignment is literally right in our face with all of the planets closest to the earth.  All of the planets recently gathering and going thru Aries gave us courage and the power to act.  NOW, they are going thru Taurus helping us make literal structure of this courage we have gathered to find the peace and security we truly seek.

May you know that the game plan is within you and coded in the stars.
BE STILL AND FIND IT.
God, as the creator of all this AND you, might be the wisest person to consult on how to face your own crisis for solutions at this time. Ask him, he will enlighten you with solutions you might not even have ever considered.  He can see & recommend something you may want to bring into your orbit to find that peaceful center- ever glowing- ever dependable and always there for you.
All you have to do is:
1.ask and
2. wait for the answer and
3. apply it.

Quote: "There are more books available to be read than can ever be read in one lifetime.  There are more things to do than can possibly be done in one lifetime.  Choose WISELY what you will spend your time on."
Neal A. Maxwell

Near Near Death Experiences??

When I was young I thought I had an idea of what life was about- I just was stumped as to what the AFTERLIFE was about. Where did I go? What happened to my body and or spirit?? Would I be alone? Where was GOD in all this?????? What state of matter would I exist in?

 At age 7 I had a traumatic experience where the car I was riding in, in the back seat- (unbuckled of course in the 1960’s)- turned a corner and the right passenger car door flew open beside me- nearly dumping me to the curb but I held on inside the car as my mother screamed as if that alone would keep me from falling out the door to some unknown physical trauma.  I could see the curb whizzing by in the glare of streetlights at night. My life perhaps- short as it was at that point , flashed before my eyes and my sense of survival instinct kicked in with a passion.  After this experience I pondered what WOULD have happened to me if I had died that night? I didn’t ask any adults the question- perhaps I assumed in my young mind they didn’t know the answer either.  I was never taught anything about it at home.  I had the strong impression we just floated out in the universe in dark space away from everything- away but always insight of the Earth- sort of in a “Galaleic” shape-  (as you’ve seen his sacred geometry drawing I’m sure). I imagined my arms outstretched as well as legs,  the body looking like the shape of a star….floating…one side as it rotated towards the sun was “fried”, while the opposite side away from the sun was “frozen cold as  ice”.  Of course our spirit was trapped inside this body of sorts- even though our physical body stayed on Earth in a grave- yet I KNEW it looked just like our mortal body.  This vision was so real to me and it frightened me.  I don’t know exactly WHEN that idea left me and I moved forward beyond that fear, but I know I no longer believe that will happen to any being on Earth after they die.

 I was 12 almost 13 when I was taught by 2 elders of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints about the restored gospel on the Earth. They taught me that we had prophets who lived in my day! Also, that there were scriptures which gave current revelation from God, through those prophets, TO US!  If there was anything we needed to know, then most likely one of the prophets had already asked that question and had the answer! Wow! What a shift in my paradigm of thinking!! I could now begin to really find all my answers! I began a sincere pursuit to all the answers to all my questions.  The more I pursued, the more questions I had to answer still.

Throughout my life, once I was baptized into this church just near my 13^th birthday, I had periodically what I call a “Near-Near Death experience”:    My definition of this term is:   I didn’t actually die or go all the way thru a tunnel  to the other side of heaven…but…. I ALMOST died .

It seemed the more I wanted to know about the “mysteries” (the things unknown to average men or women), and the more I pursued actually getting answers by spending time alone in nature and communing with God asking him questions,  the more I would have one of these experiences. I have avoided head on car collisions, being run over by wild horses, numerous fatal car accidents, falling off cliffs, being attacked by strangers, and even a near fatal gun shooting. I came to a point when I began to realize these circumstances were happening with a pattern behind them.  At first, many of them happened while I had my 2 youngest children with me.   Perhaps, I thought then, it was because one of my boys had a special purpose here & I had to make sure to protect them.  Then one particular experience happened to me- and me alone at age 37.   I was guided by a very distinct voice, out of “ground zero” at the Family History Library in Salt Lake City on April 15, 1999, where a lone gunman stood exactly where I stood, and moments later, killed and maimed several others from that very position, before he was killed himself.  So much had transpired previously that morning to keep from even being in that place, yet I had determined I was going that day!!  (Ever meet a person with Mars in Scorpio?   That’s me!!   I will pursue to the death for something I want or desire to obtain and not let anything deter me!)  After THAT experience I KNEW I HAD A PURPOSE HERE!

It took a 8 years after that experience before I could even sit at July 4^th and listen to fireworks without being reminded so  intensely about the experience and feel the fear keep resurfacing from deep within my body I had stored there from that traumatic experience.  I’ve since learned that our body can store memories of sounds, smells, sights for a lifetime of near perfect recall.  I also knew I was being protected to serve that purpose, or purposes, or even those missions- some I know now, but some yet to be discovered, unopened within me.  What was I yet to do?  Who was I yet to influence?  Whose path did I wait to cross that only I alone could have a transformative effect on???--that, if I were gone from this life, that particular work would remain forever incomplete because I was not there to fill it?

I live each day with an anxious appeal to what will be my adventure today?  Will I meet a new friend?  Will I renew a friendship from my previous existence with someone who is ALSO here upon the Earth now & will cross my path just today for the first time as I recall?  Will I learn something new – taught by the Spirit which bears testimony of ALL universal truth? Will I get to witness one of God’s new creations I have yet not seen or even knew existed on my radar of possibilities? Will I try a new food which will become one of my new favorites for the time being?  Will I travel to a new place? Will I read a new book to present a new idea?  OR will this new idea cause me to launch into a “hyperfocus” of extended personal study for a few years for which I will not obtain another scholarly degree?  Will I be taught a lesson at church that will spark a reminder of who I really am or my previous life experiences.  (I had one of those just last week and I cried at the bubbling forth of that memory within me!) I have a lot of Déjà vu moments. I LOVE, LOVE, LOVE it when I have those!!!  When I have them I KNOW I’m on my right path….. & I  gain confidence to just keep going with my eyes wide open.

Now I have strength to know it is OK to wake up laughing!

It took a few years, But I have arrived there.

Oh YEAHHHHHHH!

Yahoo!